Archive for December, 2009

The Routine

This will forever remind me of New Year’s and New Year’s Eve.



My 2009 in Review

A questionnaire, courtesy of Kshen.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’ve never done before?
God, so many new things. I got broken up with. I applied to medical school. I turned 21. I became a senior. Etc.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I think every year I try to make new year’s resolutions. Last year wasn’t particularly concrete or memorable, so no, I didn’t keep them. Yes, I will make them for next year. Don’t know what, though…

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

4. Did anyone close to you die?

5. What countries did you visit?

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Better time management.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The day that I left school to fly home after junior spring semester, and the Flower Girls came with me to drag my luggage down to the T station. That felt really good – summer was right around the corner, and we were all going to be around.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Finishing a year with HCC. I learned a lot about the organization, the great people in the organization, and myself.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not connecting with my parents as much as I used to. Maybe it was time, maybe it was being busy, maybe I just wanted to be more independent. Regardless, I should reevaluate my relationship with them, and see if there’s any way I can include them in my life a little bit more.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes. Going really anemic and losing a crapload of blood that one day. Omg, I thought I was going to die.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
That black pea coat from Old Navy.  I love that thing.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My friends. For making everything fun, enjoyable, manageable, and worth it all.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Me, when I lost my ring. Wahhhhh

14. Where did most of your money go?
Med school apps.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Knowing that I won’t be doing nothing with my life after college!

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Oh damn, this one’s hard. A few: Hot and Cold by Katy Perry, I Gotta Feeling by Black Eyed Peas, Down by Jay Sean.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
1. happier or sadder? Happier. I think I get happier every year. Or maybe that’s just delusion, lol.
2. thinner or fatter? Fatter. Lol.
3. richer or poorer? Poorer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Go to the library. Getting shit done in my room takes twice as long, I swear.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Go on free music downloading sprees. And blog surfing.

20. How did you be spend Christmas?
Opening presents, chilling out with the family, followed by an Asian dinner party. And then coming back home to watch Friends in bed.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I fall in love with a lot of things: music, photos, people. Haha. But yes, I fell in love.

23. How many one-night stands?

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Grey’s Anatomy. Hands down. Glee is good, and the music is amazing, but Grey’s just hits the spot.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

26. What was the best book you read?
The Kite Runner. Finally! I finished that book while sitting outside in Harvard Yard this summer on a really beautiful day. It was perfect.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Glee Soundtrack.

28. What did you want and get?
I wanted a Blackberry, and I got one. And unlimited texting!

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
500 Days of Summer.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 21! The day was pretty standard, with dinner with friends. But the party a week later was awesome.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More focus, and less distraction, whether physical or mental, so that things could have been more efficient.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Cardigans. So many cardigans, haha. Or I guess, layering. I wore a lot of tanktops underneath either cardigans or hoodies.

34. What kept you sane?
My ipod music. And time alone.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Natalie Portman. And George Clooney, if we’re talking people of the opposite sex.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Health care. And Obama in general.

37. Who did you miss?
I missed my family in the way that I’ve always missed my family while at school. I missed my best friend from middle school who was abroad in Austria – I had to go text-less from her for a whole semester, haha. And I missed Stephen.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm, this is also hard. You don’t realize, over the course of a year, all the new people you get to know, and the connections you accumulate. I think Summer 2009 was the best time of meeting new people that I’ve had in a while. Being an upperclassman in college, you don’t meet as many new people as you do earlier on. Summer School is like a whole new set of individuals around. Epic. 🙂

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
You don’t need to know things for certain to go on. Obviously, there are things you can plan for, but a lot of it it just has to unfold. But knowing that, everything you do should be for a reason.

And also: know who you are, know what you want, know what you’re ok with, and what you’re not ok with. And act accordingly.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Oh man. Song lyrics would be hard.
Here is just a quote instead: “The least of things with meaning is worth more in life than the greatest of things without it.” – Carl Jung
And one from Grey’s: We’re all scared! If you’re not scared, you’re not paying attention!
And one more: If we take care of the moments, the years will take care of themselves. – Maria Edgeworth

These are actually more just like life quotes. Whatever. Bah, I could go on forever…. 😛

It’s fun looking back on everything that’s happened. You don’t realize how much stuff you end up doing in a year, or missing out on, figuring out, and wasting your time with. I’m sure I forgot a lot of big things in there too, and I know I forgot a lot of little things.

You know what would be nice? A fast-forward button. Or, at least a little icon that pops up in the corner of your vision that’s supposed to mean something like, “Proceed with caution: important life-moment ahead.”  Lol. If only.

Heartbreak Warfare

Ahh, this is a great song. It’s actually kind of sad. Listen:

“Lightning strikes inside my chest
Keeps me up at night
Dream of ways to make you understand my pain…

…Good to know it’s all a game
Disappointment has a name
It’s heartbreak, heartbreak…”

Somebody to Love

This song is growing on me. It’s very happy sounding :).

Quarter-Life Crisis/Questions

This article I ran across is very timely, though its already been out since April. Really interesting and funny – read here!

The gist: it’s about the “Quarter Life Crisis,” which is a life-time phase when twenty-some year olds, generally people who are two years or so into the real world after college, start to lose track of themselves within the haziness of what they should be doing with their life, partly fueled by all the possibilities and potential out there. Apparently, it’s associated with a kind of private worry that manifests itself as this “ennui,” or “fucking around,” or “self-flagellation,” as the article calls it, haha. It’s a socially constructed, middle-class issue that only emerged as a term in 2001, but has become a pervasive problem that people at this age apparently struggle with, whether delusionally or in reality.

Some gems from the article:

“…Attempts to manage the Quarterlife Crisis might be as banal as drinking a lot, doing a bunch of drugs, sleeping with idiots and myriad other kinds of self-flagellation, but broader attempts are made to find some sense of purpose…”

“…This isolation and its private anxiety are pervasive, as is a longing for the way things were in the predictably structured eras of high school and college or university. The directionlessness and resulting immobility is made worse when twentysomethings going through the Crisis compare themselves to their peers, past and present, further convincing someone in the throes of it that they’re not only alone, but the worst kind of failure…”

“…“There is life on the other side of this, and it’s actually a pretty good one. Growing up may be hard to do, but in the end, the gains outweigh the losses.” In other words: it might just be time to grow the fuck up.”

It’s entertaining, if not slightly enlightening. I think 2010 Seniors haven’t quite gotten to this state of disillusionment yet. I think we’re more excited about the prospect of this final semester and what’s coming in post-college life, as well as, relishing in the few months and moments we have left with people here, as we should be.

While this “Quarter-life Crisis” may be something of actual concern in this population of adults, part of me discredits it as an immature and formalized expression of laziness and and unwillingness to work hard. (I’m not accusing all 25-year-olds of being lazy, I just think that is problem is partly the result of laziness…) I certainly don’t mean to discredit the fact that we all have every right to happy with what we make of our time, whether it be in grad school or at a job or in a relationship – everyone is entitled to satisfaction and fulfillment. What bothers me is when people think things are meant to be easy, or that things like happiness and a strong sense of purpose in life are supposed to come without the work.

I agree that a lot of people feel entitled, or feel that just because they are young and have the time to figure it all out, they should be out there having the time of their lives and being spontaneous and taking big chances. I obviously don’t mean that this is altogether bad; leaving your options open, being willing to try things out, and living large is important when you have the time, energy, and resources for it. But moving around from thing to thing, waiting until you find something that’s ideal or perfect, because you think your life should be ideal or perfect, is stupid.

Things are meant to be hard right? Or else doing things wouldn’t be worth it. Yes, when you’re young, life is supposed to be a little less hard than when you’re older. And by all means, don’t settle (if you can help it). But all in all, people should be realistic. Instead of looking around for things that are bigger and better, take the initiative to make the most out of things that are in your control. This is, of course, easier said than done. But it beats feeling aimless, helpless, and powerless. If anything, being at the 25-year-ish mark of your life means you actually have the ability to do something about it.

And I Am Telling You

No one can beat Leah Michelle’s/Rachel’s voice on Glee. But dayum, this is amazing.

Jennifer Hudson’s original version in Dreamgirls is also incredible. Saw that movie with the Adams D-42/43 clan Sophomore year during intersession! Good times :).


This looks awesome. Joseph Gordon-Levitt (Tom from 500 Days) is in it!

Options and Priorities

I love this – says it perfectly.

All or Nothing

He is dreamy.

“We went together like summer and June
But who’d have known that it’d rain so soon”

Tina Fey

She’s another generation. So I don’t have to feel jealous. 😛

I read an article on her in Bazaar (same place I saw those Emma Watson Burberry ads) – she’s hilarious. I’ve never watched 30 Rock, but it must be good (can’t get addicted to another tv show now though…). Here’s the article link. Quote:

During her ode to [Steve] Carell, she says modestly, “I can officially put on my résumé, ‘Special skills: stands next to funny person.'”

I love this dress, and this photo. Her hair is also pretty much perfect. 😛

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